Friday, September 7, 2012

Through the mist

Through the mist of tears,
I see everything crystal clear.
A path winding amid a forest
aglow with sugar coated deception,
dripping with heart piercing venom.
Each step I take, slips in the muck
of loathsome nightmares, and severed dreams.
Pride a distant memory, like a lover's caress
long forgotten.
Dancing between this world and the next.
Tiptoeing around pitfalls leading to suffocating
darkness.
Burdens of wisdom weighing me down,
threatening to drown me in a pool of insanity.
Visions burning my brain, melting through
to the core of my being.
Surrounded by others wrapped in a blanket
of their own deceit, and clouded truth.
Through the mist of tears,
I see everything crystal clear.


Sunday, July 8, 2012

No man's burden

I stall be no man's burden.
I will be God's alone.
Only God who created me,
and has searched my heart
shall sit in judgement of my thoughts
and actions.
Let it be my Father in Heaven,
who would declare me worthy or not.
I do not live for myself, I live
only to glorify the name of the
One, who came to earth, to live
and die as a sacrifice for all of us.
I am a sinner, among some of the
worst, redeemed by the ever enduring
love of the Son.
Man can call me a fool, call me crazy,
persecute me for my belief in something
man cannot see with his own eyes.
It makes no difference to me, for I live
not for man's judgement, I live only for
God's.
He loves me regardless of how imperfect
I am, for that I am ever grateful.
- Amber Collett

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Weary Traveler


Hollow heart and tired brain
Dried up tears washed away
Siphoned dreams turns to dust
Slow moving veins and shallow breathe
Encased in a decaying body
Emptied out and laid bare
Naked and shivering in a hostile world
Stumbling and faltering steps 
Through a deceptive landscape
On the verge of expectation
Your life giving Grace
Breathing life back into my spirit
Your loving embrace keeping me upright
Your alluring words drenching my mind
Your light blinding renewed eyes
You lead and I will follow
Nothing could seperate us
I am sewn into your side
I am yours forever more
I am your beloved
You are my king
I am not alone

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Warrior

Brave and Strong.
Cunning and Wise.
Alluring and Beautiful.
Challenging and Striking.
Poised and Hungry.
Wanting and Giving.
Destined and Unwavering.
Spiritual and Gifted.
Loving and Consuming.
Tried and Tested.
Wounded and Suffering.
Unforgettable and Everlasting.
Truthful and Trustworthy.
Confusing and Complex.
Deep and Healing.
Faithful and Loyal.
Laughable and Amusing.
Called and Cherished.
I am a survivor.
I am a warrior.
I can do this.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

My tale of a butterfly

About a month ago, I asked God to bring me one butterfly.
A few days later, one small white butterfly flew into my backyard.
I praised God, thanking Him. A few days later, I noticed that instead of one,
there was now two. I believe at that point I said something like "Keep
them coming Lord!" Before I knew it, I had six white butterflies
swooping around. Everytime I saw them it made me feel loved.
A week ago I noticed one new butterfly, one I can't seem to
find in any guide, and in the 3 years I've lived at this house, never seen before.
Everyday this week more and more of these butterflies are showing up.
 Today there were dozens of them!!  
It even seemed they followed me to work today, and back home.
As I walked up to my front door, one fluttered around me, then landed
on the house.
      If one single white butterfly made me feel loved, think about how I must
feel today.  Cherished, is the word that comes to mind.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Master Creator




As with any intimate relationship, its hard not to become familiar with the one your in a relationship with. Spending everyday together gives you insight into their characteristics.
I, having spent so much of my time lately getting to know my God, have been given insight into His characteristics. He is a marvel of intelligence, complex and awesome. Gentle, and caring. Loving,
and enticing. Protective, and fatherly. But I believe at the heart of His very being is His love for creation. All you have to do to know this about Him, is simply look around at the awe inspiring things in nature.
It seems as if a lot of people ask the question “What purpose did God create us for?”
So I would ask in reply, what drives an artist to create any piece of artwork? As humans we love to build, and create. Its this driving force within us that should give us insight into God's motives.
We were created in His image, so its natural to assume some of our characteristics would also come from Him, not just what we look like. Our world, and everything in it, is a Masterpiece. With all artists when you have created a truly beautiful piece of artwork, you will never forget about it, and it will always hold deep meaning in your heart.
I believe God loves the very act of creating, He is an Master artist, but also so much more than that. Its so hard to know everything there is to know about God. But one thing I do know is, when I look up at the sky, and see such beauty that takes my breathe away, I always know He is with me.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Parable of Two Teams


You have two teams. Ancient rivals.

The Damnatio: Team motto “Destroy or Be Destroyed”
On one side,you have a team full of individuals who care about their own glory. They only acknowledge their team mates when it suits them, because its really only about themselves. They are striving to make a name for themselves. The only sacrifices they make are ones they believe will get them more fame, more acknowledgment, more of what they want. They play to win, but only for the glory and power that comes with it.
Their coach, is one who cares nothing for the players, he only cares about winning and revenge. His players are only pawns in the game to get what he wants.
This coach is arrogant and self centered. He pushes his players to exhaustion, and when they get burned out, he replaces them without a second thought. In this world there is an endless supply of men who want glory for themselves, and this coach promises that. He promises glory, fortune and fame,(everything your heart desires, money, women, a name for yourself) but in the end, in his eyes they are all replaceable. Nothing but tools to get what he wants. At the end of this career, if you last that long, everything you thought you gained, will have been long gone. You will have been forgotten, along with the other men who made the same choices.

The Sarcologos: Team motto “One team, One dream”

On the other side, you have the definition of what a team should be . They are in this together. They are one, working together as one body to one goal. Caring, not just for themselves, but for each other. Its not just about winning, its about the game itself. At the head you have a great coach, one who has experience and great knowledge. He loves, and cares for his team. He values each individual for their own unique talent. They all work together to create a team. This coach knows when to push his players, and when to let up. He believes in patiently teaching them his playbook, but also believes in discipline. They are irreplaceable. He makes sure to know each one, to create a intimate relationship with each one of his players,offering encouragement and advice when they need it. He is an honest man, who expects his players to work hard. He also takes the full responsibility for his team.  Its not easy being on this team, because he doesn’t promise fortune and fame necessarily. What he offers is much more valuable, he offers that if you play for his team, you will have some of the greatest moments of your life. And at the end of your career you will be honored forever, and your name will go into the Hall of Fame.

These teams have been fighting each other for a very long time. Each team has had their share of victories. They are tough competitors, its all or nothing.
Each team is constantly recruiting, always looking for new talent. Unfortunately, it seems The Damnatio recruits far more men into their ranks, then The Sarcologos. They exploit a man's inner desire for recognition among his fellow man. Every man wants acknowledgment, to be seen for the man he is. The Damnatio know this, they are flashy and brazen, they offer excitement. They seduce a man into their ranks with the promise of giving you everything you could ever want. Its not about talent, its about sheer number, they believe in overwhelming their competition. They make you believe you have freedom, when in reality your enslaved
in doing only what they want.
The Sarcologos on the other hand are quieter, more reserved. They let a man decide if he wants in, or not, the choice is his to make. They know their team speaks for itself. “One Team, One Dream”. They believe in honor, and through honor, you receive glory. They work hard in everything they do. They are champions to the core. They only want men who have the drive in being the greatest team . They know few men are able to resist the more flashy colorful message of The Damnatio, but they don't believe in compromising their team's principles just to recruit more men into their ranks. Once you become a member of The Sarcologos, you are a member for life. You will never be forgotten for your contributions you made for the team.

Every person gets to play in this game, no one gets to sit out. Everyone gets to choose which team they want to play for.
Which team do you think you play for? Which side will you be on when both teams come face to face on the field for the World Cup?

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Broken Things

Everyday I encounter people who harbor such brokeness concealed within them.
Broken hearts, broken minds, broken spirits.
I always regonize others who have this pain,
because at one time I was a completely broken
human being myself. The toll of abuse, neglect,
and rejection through out my life, all contributed to 
my intense brokeness. I, for many years,
felt completely worthless, and empty.
People go around seaching endlessly for anything
(other people, possessions, drugs, alcohol, etc.)
to fill this void. Unfortunately, none of these will
help fix the wounds inflicted on us by others,
who were in just as much pain themselves.
"Hurting" people usually end up hurting others.
The emptiness they feel was created from
the lack of love, understanding and acceptance. 
We all just want to be seen, and understood.
Seen for the person we truly are inside, and accepted,
brokeness and all.
And above all else, we all just want to be unconditionally loved.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Interesting article I found on Soul Ties

So what is a soul tie? A soul tie is two souls tied together by the spirit. Mainly caused by sex or sexual abuse. In the eyes of God “the act of sex is marriage through consummation.” Every single time an unmarried person has sex they become married to that person. For example if someone has had twenty-five sex partners, they have probably been exposed to hundreds of other souls. If the other person had more than one partner, then you are also exposed to all their partners as well. In simple terms, you have sex with everyone they have had sex with. So as one can easily see this makes having a truly loving, intimate, and close union very difficult.
What other ways can soul ties form?Soul ties are mainly formed through sexual intercourse, but they can also form emotionally. Please understand sex outside of marriage rips and tears the soul when one tries to break away. Remember you are joined as one, so when you break away it hurts you. What is left are the emotional scars. In my own life I have seen words even become a source of a soul tie. When people say, “I will love you forever” or “I got your back no matter what” you tend to hold on to those words when you have a soul tie because a co-dependency has been created.
Sexual abuse is another way soul ties can be formed. When someone has been sexually abused as a child and becomes an adult the soul tie can greatly affect their relationships.
In Biblical times there was no wedding in the way it is viewed today, so becoming one flesh was marriage.

Written by Quentin McCall

Monday, March 26, 2012

"Joy is love exalted,
peace is love in repose;
long suffering is love enduring;
gentleness is love in society;
goodness is love in action;
faith is love on the battlefield;
meekness is love in school;
and temperance is love in training."

-Dwight Moody

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Champion

Knocked down, and stepped on.
You can bloody my face, black my eye.
I will always get back up!
You can hurt my pride, break my heart.
I will never surrender!
You can take away everything I own.
I will never lay down and die!
You can try and crush me.
I will always survive!
You can reject and ignore me.
I will always persevere!
Strength of spirit, heart of might,
I was born a champion, I was born a fighter. 

Thursday, March 22, 2012

In the darkness

"There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed,
or hidden that will not be made known.
What you have said in the dark will be heard
in the daylight, and what you have whispered
in the ear will be proclaimed from the roofs"
Luke 12:2-3

This saying is true, whether you believe in the Bible or not.
Whatever is done in the dark, will always come to the light.
It may happen right away, or take years. Every bad deed
will eventually be found out.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Each Day

What do you live for each day? Our society teaches us that pleasure,
prosperity, position, and popularity will make us happy.-
but living in the service of self always leaves an emptiness no earthy reward can fill.
People will usually go to great lengths to achieve these things,
 usually hurting themselves and others in process.
People with a misguided sense of direction often wonder why they feel unfulfilled.
God gives each of us a life for a very specific reason: to serve Him, not ourselves.
So the question remains...What do you live for each day?
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Monday, March 19, 2012

Countdown

Minute by minute.
Hour by hour.
Year by year.
The countdown has begun.
Tried to slip away.
Hide in the shadows.
Turn my face away.
Determined to avoid.
Holding on to nothing.
Suffocating on my own mind.
Meaningless struggles of pain.
Minute by minute.
Hour by hour.
Year by year.
The countdown has begun.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

On A Butterfly's Wing

On a butterfly's wing,
My prayer was answered.
Spirit rising with the sun,
Soul drifting with the clouds.
Heart blazing with a rhythmic beat,
Body dancing on streams of air.
Happiness bubbles up with intense joy,
Gladness swells and ripens.
Come fly with me,
Soar to the sparkling heights.
Forget about the past,
Look only to the future.
Nothing will stand in our way,
Because on this day my prayer was answered
On a butterfly's wing.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Constant Companion

Even when you can not see me,
I am there.
When you stumble and fall,
I am there.
When you've cried till you can cry no more,
I am there.
When everyone else abandons you,
I am there.
When you feel as if no one else cares,
I am there.
When the sorrows of this life have overwhelmed you,
I am there.
When you ache for someone to hold you,
I am there.
When you become tired and weary,
I am there.
Even when you have nothing left to give,
I am there.
Even when you push me away,
I am there.
I will be your constant companion,
I am there.
When you finally open your eyes,
I am there.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

On the Edge

Standing on the edge between darkness and light,
Can't go back, forced to go forwards.
Can't see ahead, don't want to look behind.
Frozen in place, too strong to die, too weak to live.
Confusion crowds my mind, 
Indecision weighing me down.
I try to cry out, but all I manage is a whisper.
Fear lapping at my feet, joy just out of reach.
How long will I stand here,
Between these two destinies?
Only God Knows.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Cry to battle

Come Son of Adam
Heed the cry!
Do not be lead astray!
Every step a battle,
Every breath a labor.
You were born for greatness!
Let love guide your footsteps.
Let your heart soar,
Let your spirit fly!
Break the chains of bondage.
Rise Son of Adam!
Do not let the enemy gain a foothold.
You have a warrior's heart,
Take up sword and shield!
Defend My honor!
Come Son of Adam,
Heed the cry! 

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Beautiful

I am Beauty incarnate.
Deep within me dwells the power of Beauty,
Both blinding and inviting.
Cool as a spring breeze,
Warm as a summer night.
Dazzling as the sun,
Comforting as the stars in the night sky.
It doesn't come from me,
But was given as a gift of love.
It isn't from pride and vanity,
But comes from the reflection of the One who made me.
Embrace it, fear it, love it, or hate it,
But don't ignore it.
I am Beauty incarnate.


(This is written for all the women who never feel "good enough" or "just too much",  Don't believe this lie, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!)

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Tears




Though tears stream down my face,
and my heart aches, I won't let my love die.
Through pain and suffering,
I will shine.
By Your grace and Your strength,
I won't give up.
I will let You carry me through,
I will let You take my hand.
I will walk in Your footsteps,
till I walk no more.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

From a seed I grew


Once I was as small as a seed,
 raw and untouched.
You took me into your hands,
planted me in the ground.
You covered me with rich dark soil,
drenched me with water from Your heart.
Seasons came and went,
and though I struggled to grow,
You tenderly cared for me.
Patiently You waited, slowly I grew.
Never once did You leave me,
protecting me through the winters,
shading me through the summers.
You knew one day I would grow,
grow into a tree strong and true.
My branches reaching out to Heaven,
my roots firmly planted in Earth.
I have withstood fires and storms,
drought and rot.
All because You blanketed me with
Your life giving, saving grace.
Today I bear the fruits of Your labor,
giving back to You what You gave to me.
Thank You for never giving up,
thank You for loving me.
From a little seed I grew,
into a tree, strong and true.



 


Monday, March 5, 2012

I have always felt "not good enough". Not good enough to be loved,  not good enough to be successful, just not good enough to win at anything. Even though I try to be the very best person I can be, it still seems not good enough.  Whats it even mean to be good enough? Is there a level of good thats enough?
This is probably my biggest battle with myself right now. If God can love me unconditionally, then why can't I love myself unconditionally?  I have a hard time being at peace with myself because of this. If I have learned the lesson of forgiveness and uncondtional love for others, I guess I need to apply that to myself also.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Truths I've learned about Choices

Behaviors are a choice. Feelings are sometimes out of our control. Behavior has to do with choices.
~Randall Terry

 
 
   Everyday we make choices. It is these choices that shape our lives, and the lives of others around us. How we choose to react to our circumstances impacts the world around us. We choose our own postive or negative reactions.Whether great or small, every action has a reaction.Everyday we choose between embracing happiness, or sorrow, hope or discouragement, truth or deceit, acceptance or rejection, love or hate. These are decisions of  attitudes we will choose at any given moment.They
  are choices of which path we will travel down. It is always our choice whether we will love others, or decide to reject them. It is always a choice between inflicting pain upon another person, or providing them with understanding through love. Making the right choices can lead us down a path that can give us continous joy through out our lives, making the wrong choices can lead us down a path of a life filled with sorrow and loss. We have to put forth an effort each day to make the right choices.
So when we finally leave this earth, it will be the everyday choices we made that will be the real legacy we leave behind.
                       
      

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Truths I've learned about Love

                                    



               The greatest love sometimes comes from the greatest sorrow. How can you really measure how much you love someone until you are faced with the loss of that person? True love is deep and complex, with many levels of understanding. There are many levels to love, in which few people ever achieve the most complex and deepest level. Especially when the object of your love is someone not of your own flesh. Its far easier to truly love someone when they are naturally tied to you by genetics. The Greeks had 4 different words to describe love.   Storge – affection, Philia – friendship, Eros – romance, Agape – unconditional love. Its this last, and most powerful level of love thats the hardest to achieve, because to achieve this you must first decide how much you are willing to suffer for this object of your love. Sacrificing one's own selfish desires and needs, for the needs of someone else.  To love someone not of your flesh unconditionally, is a raw powerful love. Because you know they may never learn to love you back this way, but you love them despite this. Learning to love someone like this does not comes naturally, and usually can't be known until it is put through the trials that come with life. This kind of love comes from complete understanding and forgiveness of the other person's weaknesses. But to achieve this level of love for another human being can be both powerful and excruciating painful. Its a willingness to suffer your own loss of self to give entirely to another. It is the ultimate love you can feel for another human being.